What happens when your plans don’t work out? I’m a little lost ya’ll. I’m a little stuck in my mind, allowing fear and doubt to cloud my judgement. I’m extremely hard on myself and extremely impatient. So enjoying the journey is hard for me but I understand that the journey is 90% of it. I feel like the wind was knocked out of my sails and I’ve been having a hard time recovering. I hate working without focus and ultimately I feel unfocused and without direction. What do you all do when you’re in this place?
I posted on Instagram yesterday with this question and got SO many responses. I’m trying to focus in on the things that I enjoy that make me happy, breaking it down that way. So what do I love about blogging, why did I start? I love styling and fashion. I love creating images and being creative. I love empowering and inspiring people to be more confident, to build more self esteem and be bad bitches. What don’t I like? The comparison, the industry of it, sponsored posts, ads, lack of financial compensation, number of likes/follows/comments as a way to measure value. I’m telling you miss me with this extra shit. I’m tired of it. Even typing that, I’m like mannn why do I keep this going? I truly love the creating of it. When I boil everything I’m passionate about it comes back to being creative and creating, story telling.
I hope I’m getting closer to an answer. I think identifying the core things I love helps with clarity and focus. Also knowing what you don’t like helps. Feels like a time to clean house (literally and figuratively as I just moved), reevaluate and regain a new focus. The extra shit doesn’t serve me anymore.
Puffer Jacket c/o ASOS
Camo Corset from Yandy.com
Strap Heels from Steve Madden (old)
Purple Glasses from UVO
photos courtesy of Coco