I have a very hard time letting go and trusting. I have a really hard time trusting in a path that I can only see a few feet ahead of me. I don’t like driving without high beams and I don’t like falling for someone I don’t have full trust in but it never works out that way. Life continues on, if we trust or not. Life has been all over the place for me and I’m finding it very hard to trust the process. I like to know my next step now, I like to be comfortable with someone right away and I like to know. I feel anxious in grey areas or transitions and I’m sitting in a great, big “What’s NEXT” transition. OOFH
When I have trouble trusting I think about the things I know for sure. I know I have the love and support from my family. I know I will be okay and I will always find my next step. I know I have to create. I finally know my worth.
My lack of trust, doesn’t allow room for a day off. I need to be doing the next thing and onto the next. My mom told me this story of a tea cup and a saucer. Your mind is a tea cup and information is tea, if you don’t allow yourself a moment to focus, breath and experience life your tea cup will run over and spill. You need balance. I’m really working on it. I love, love, love working and creating but I also need to love and experience life. For a long time my cup has been overflowing. Taking a second to recenter, embrace the transition and TRUST.
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